Thursday, September 29, 2005
Pregnancy was no surprise for me, but it was a little scared at the first month and so ( i had miscarriage last year ). I was so weak, cranky, always exhausted, and afraid to do anything especially doctor have asked me to stay in bad rest..... sad, felt lonely, kangen keluarga, and ....Fat. I gained 8 lbs for the 2nd month and 6 lbs the 3rd month, "you're not fat, you're pregnant" says my doctor every time i was complaining. What did i think was going to happen ? I thought if i am hungry meant the baby hungry. haha... silly huh ? I was so wrong with my diet, but better late than never. So i've changed my diet in 2nd trismester.
What else did i expect ? Nice skin, thick hair, strong - beautiful nails, and again fat. And what i am getting ? Fat... yup.... need to pee every 15 minutes ? yup. Nasty gas ? yup. Congestion ? Constipation, bigger feet,sort breath, tired, moody ? yup, yup, yup....
Can i find anything good about this ? (My hubby so patient all the time, but i am afraid i'm getting on his nerves). Then, at week 19 or 20, everything changes. I'm 4,5 months along, and i feel something amazing. WOW... Something moves for the first time ( like dolphine ) "berenang" inside me. Its suddenly hits me, Upss.... someone is growing inside me. dr.Pat was right.... i am not fat, i'm making room for my baby. I am not scare anymore.... I tell mu husband everytime there's a movement ( but my husband could not feel it hehe... ). Wow.... this is soooo amazing.... Someone is definitely inside me, taking over my belly, and soon taking over my life... our life....
You know what ??? Now, right this time... i think about it... Everything like magic... sometimes i couldn't believe i'm having a baby very soon.... ( jadi terharu ... ) I guess... its not that hard being pregnant after all.... I'm gonna miss it....